What is the meaning of this?
The simple answer is this: It is a single line and four dots that appeared one day while I was hunched over my drawing board, recovering from the soul damage I’d inflicted upon myself by being a willing participant in an immoral war. Mind you, I was never in any kind of danger, stationed on Guam. I suffered no hint of trauma compared to those in combat; but selling out corrodes the soul, regardless of whatever initial relief it may provide.
So way back when, while I was doodling with my Rapidograph pen, out came this symbol. I felt it had a remarkable presence and kept it, perhaps for some future purpose.
Whatever it is, I like it…
What does it mean? I don’t know; it’s a pure symbol. On a good day, I imagine it could be a representation of the many paradoxes of consciousness. It appears to be two beings, but is not. One appears to be in front of the other, but isn’t. The one “in front” appears to be contained, but is not; it’s as much on the outside as the inside. The one “behind” appears to be vulnerable, but is actually the one that would be solid if it existed. In terms of meaning, that’s what I’ve come up with over the decades since it appeared. And yet, it may not mean anything at all.
Whatever it is, I like it and have adopted it as my logo. I’ve also given it the name Erawa, which is aware spelled backwards. Seemed to fit.